So. I am back in Seattle. And, as busy as life gets, I somehow find that when I am here I have time to write. Granted, it's almost completely impossible to try and summarize the year that has passed in the interim, but for cohesion's sake, I will try.

October 2010- shipped to basic training.
December 2010- graduated basic, went home, then went back to SC.
January 2011-October 2011- Went to AIT, hurt my knee, had knee surgery (again), recovered from said surgery, graduated AIT.
September 2011- stationed at Fort Carson, CO.

Since September a lot has happened. Not sure how much I should expound upon. Perhaps I should isolate my rambling to my little world-view sphere rather than mentioning anyone else... suffice to say I fell in love. Fucking stupid. Why do I always do that?

Can't I have an awesome life sans the complications of the l-word?

Anyway. He's getting stationed somewhere else so I'm learning to let that one go. For now.

What else? Oh! I'm dropping my packet for OCS in January 2012- which means I'm going to submit it for review to become a commissioned officer in the US Army. About goddamn time... but it's not so easy. Officer Candidate School isn't notoriously hard but it's not a cake walk with three knee surgeries under your belt, either. So I have a good deal of work to do in the running department.

Let's do it, then. This is no time to be talking about it.

Ranger the Fuck Up.

trippin balls... naturally

i am losing a lot of weight in a very short amount of time
i'm always dizzy
but i think, because my body is in such a state, my brain is releasing extra endorphins and feel-good chemicals
i constantly feel like my right brain is allowing me to experience things in new ways
so basically, i'm always high as fuck off of endogenous drugs

this is ...awesome?

now i know why hippie vegan runners are always so stoked with life
because there are trees!

and other reasons

but even when i'm tired i feel okay, and i still get mad and whatnot, it's just that everything is mitigated by a sensation and sense of well being...

my left knee hurts a lot

but even that's okay.

<3 i love you!

hey doctor

stop doubting me.
seriously.
just because life has shat on you and other people have fucked you over,
doesn't mean i will, it doesn't mean you get to decide who i am.
just because you perceive one thing does NOT make that the reality, my reality.
so kindly leave me alone, as i'm attempting to do to you.

kthx

did you know if you don't eat your body will try to stop you from working out
that is when you kill your body

...huh?

yup, "when while pondering things."

hey read this cause its from my head organ

man wrestlers are crazy
i wanna fight in a cage... but for me it would be more like getting my ass kicked in a cage
freud said that females have penis envy
for me, i say nay.

i have beard envy.

if i could, i would grow the most awesome creepy moustache, then a goatee, then a full and wonderful beard. and i would stroke it when while pondering things.

neato

if our left hemisphere is the serial processor and our right hemisphere is the parallell processor,
if our left is detail oriented and linear-temporal thinking
and our right is feeling oriented and visual- spacial thinking

that means we evolved to have hemispheres of our brain ESPECIALLY designed for percieving, processing and experiencing both time and space

we are clearly creatures of our own dimension experiencing this temporal and spacial reality together

cool

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU&